Aymen

We had such a horrible night last night. My dog got sick around midnight and we had to rush him to the vet. He’s got parvo and really bad arthritis (he’s 10 years old). After shots, medicine and having him stuck to an IV, he’s home. I was out with him so my low carb diet went out the window for a few hours. I figure I’d been on it for a week so I wouldn’t be too hard on myself for it.

I weighed myself in today, since my mom told me that she noticed I wasn’t so “bloated” today. lol I guess it’s her way of saying I look less fatter than last week! I’m friggin excited because I’m SO close to the 170s! I weighed in at 183.2, and that makes me really happy.

When I left my job in December 2005 (or was it January 2006? lol) I weighed in at around 170. This was after gaining 15 pounds because I was going through A LOT of stress. I usually weighed in at 155 and although I am only 5′4, I was happy with it. I had curves in all the right places, if ya get my drift! LOL Now, I have the majority of my weight in my stomach, and that makes me SOOOOO sad and embarrassed.

My goal weight is 130 because I’ve been 130 and was able to wear t-shirts without worrying about my belly. There’s no other way to put it, but I felt… free.

My short term goal is 170lbs. I hope to get there by August 31st, which is the start of Fall semester. That will be an almost 14 pound loss.

Wish me luck!!

After a long break and a very hard semester, I am back! I’ve picked up low carbing again and I am on day 4 today. Before I started, I weighed in at 189.6 and am now 185.3 which is 4.3 pounds down so far. I am out of school until the end of August, so I am planning on sticking to Atkin’s induction for as long as I can, eventually switching over to the South Beach plan. Unfortunately, low carbing is the only thing that works for my insulin resistant butt.

5′4
HW: 199
CW: 185.3
LW: 137

Short term goal: 180
Long term goal: 120-125

I woke up feeling so sluggish today. It was so hard for me to get up and get Destie ready for school, I had no energy! When I came home, I stood in the kitchen and tried to figure out what to make for breakfast that was low carb. I almost dread making breakfast now because ultimately, I end up making the same thing over and over again… which includes egg. Thank God my cholesterol is okay, or else I’d be screwed.

I made “huevo rancheros” which was different. Scrambled eggs over a low carb tortilla, covered in mexican salsa. I also had de-caffeinated coffee, and two cheese sticks. I haven’t had coffee in so long, it was bliss! I’ve started downing water already, so I’m getting started early.

I just feel so sluggish. It’s such a beautiful day too. I should get out of the house and enjoy my time off of school. I’ve been feeling so sleepy too. I almost want to lay down on the front deck with my dog! hahaha I can just see the neighbors faces if they see me!

Yesterday, my Beau and I decided to get out of the house and go out. My niece is spending time with her mom, so we’ve had the house all to ourselves. We ended up in carb hell, The Olive Garden. At first I went in there thinking, “I’m going to have a HUGE salad.” But who am I kidding? I am getting to the point I have lettuce coming out of my a… I mean… nose. So… I decided that I would give in and eat a nice romantic dinner with my BF and not worry about it. I had the fetuccini alfredo and the bread sticks. Carb hell. Ironically, I usually inhale the whole plate and several bread sticks, but yesterday I was full halfway through. I also had a glass of wine and split dessert with my Beau. It was a really romantic night. Then we went to Coronado and walked around the beach.

It’s funny because usually I would have been like, “WTH did you do!” but I woke up feeling really comfortable with my decision. I’m on day 7, but I guess I should really call it day 1, if you think about it.

Today we BBQd and he’s watching the game while I’m in the computer room. We should be picking up Destie tonight, and tomorrow will be her first day back to the 1st grade. Our sleeping in days are over. Boo! I’m just glad I don’t start school until the 2nd.

Today I had a major snag with my school schedule. One of my classmates advised me to not take two specific classes together, because they are both BIG loads of work. I was going to try to do 5 classes in spring, 1 in summer and 4 in fall, plus my internship. She advised me to take these two classes one after another, which means I’ll have to stay in school for another semester. Either way, I won’t “walk” until May of 2010, but I just wanted to be done with classes by December 2009 so I could possibly start working by 2010. We desperately need income, since my BF is having trouble finding a full time job. *sigh* I’m going to really have to think about this. I don’t want to take these two classes if I’m not going to do well in them. It worries me though that my friend and another classmate took these two classes and barely passed them, because they received As in the last class we had together, and I earned a C- and had to retake the class. I’m starting to wonder if Public Relations is for me! *ugh*

It seems like this is day 305. Seriously.

I’m scheduled to pick my classes in a few hours and after putting together the classes that I HAVE to take, I realized that this is going to be another high stress semester. I’m once again taking 5 classes and it looks like I’ll be at school 5 days a week. I’m going to have to juggle school, my niece, my relationship and my diet. It’s going to be really hard, but I can do it. I did it last semester, minus the planning of the food, but I have faith. I’m going to have to chant, “Go me!” a few times to remind me that I can do it though. LOL

This morning I woke up really late and made myself scrambled eggs and weenies. I am done with the eggs. It’s the one thing about low carbing that I hate. EGGS! I’m going to have to get creative and start planning better breakfasts.

I was suppose to weigh on on Monday, but I snuck out the scale and weighed myself today. I was really happy when I saw the scale. I started off at 191.6 and today, I weighed in at 184.6. That’s 7 pounds in 5 days! Whoot! I’m sure a lot of it is water weight, because I’ve been drinking SO much water, but hey, I’ll take what I can get!! I’m glad I cheated and weighed myself though. I needed the motivation.

Yesterday started off okay, but by 11pm I was about ready to drive to Burger King. I was a complete bottomless pit! I don’t know what went on. Watching the Food Network is bad while low carbing. Seriously!

Today has been a better day. I’ve been getting my water down and have eaten really well so far. Go me!

I want to start off by saying that I’ve felt very welcomed to this site so I’m really happy about that Losing weight is tough but it’s always nice when you have supportive friends around! If I don’t comment back, it’s because I’m not sure if I comment back on my page, the person who commented gets the message sent to them? Can any one send some help this way? I would really really appreciate it!!

I had such a busy day today. It really is amazing how when you’re hungry and unprepared, thoughts of Burger King whoppers pop into your head and the drive thru seems like the logical choice. My Beau made an awesome dinner for us while I jumped in the shower, so he kicked butt and helped me see the light. lol

With low carbing and cutting out caffeine, I came to realized how attached to my morning coffee I was! It was a tough semester and boy did I rely on my coffee!! I’m now paying te price for my little dependency by having caffeine withdrawals. :(  I hope this nagging headache goes away soon!

All in all I did really well today.  The only bad thing is that I didn’t drink as much water as I need to.  I end up drinking the water at night, which in turn keeps me up in the night because I’ve got to keep getting up to go to the bathroom.  I say this as I drink a big glass of water though… I’ll do better tomorrow.

I decided that I was tired of being fat, so I would do something about it. I’m such a yo-yo dieter, but this time seems different. I guess my biggest motivation for trying to lose weight it because my biological clock is just a few ticks away from stopping, and having PCOS has made it so difficult to become (and stay) pregnant. I won’t be done with college until the end of the year, so this year is about losing the weight and getting things done with school.

Here are my stats and goals

5′4
HW: 199
CW: 191.6
LW: 137

Short term goal: 180
Long term goal: 120-125